Say U'll Stay

Tonight, were all alone tonight,
Theres never been a moment
That trembles like tonight.
I read ur eyes tonight,
I see a love I always known
>from another time
That once again is mine,

I need to know
Are u real?
Do u feel the way I feel?
Could u love?
Like I love you
Say u can and
Say u do

[chorus 1]
Say youll stay,
Say your sure,
Say my heart was made for yours.
Let our love lead the way
Say youll stay (say youll stay).

Tonight Ive waited for tonight
I waited all my life
To be where we are
With you in my arms
I cant believe
How you shine
Is this moment really mine?
Could u love like I love you?
Say u can and
Say u do

[chorus 2]
Say youll stay
By my side,
Say its more than just tonight
Say youll know
Whenever let u are the wind and
Ill never walk away

[chorus 1]

Say ull stay forever in my arms
And whenever tears are falling girl,
Ill kiss them all away (I will kiss them all away)
So if u wanna be my lady,
Say youll stay

[chorus 2]

Say ull stay
Say ur sure
Say my heart was made for urs
Let our love lead the way
Say ull stay (say ull stay)

Say ull stay

Can't help it, I still cry whenever I watch this... I'll miss you vek...

P.A.C.K.E.R.S

Change in life is inevitable.


Yesterday we found out that our team will part ways come May 4th, 7 of them will start training on that day and will be under a different program of our new account. Some of them will not give any impact on me when I sit on my station on May 4th, but some will not just leave an empty sit on our bay but also a empty space in my heart. (crap..my tears starts to shed now..).

I will miss Cath and her brutally frank attitude. I will miss JR "vek" and our long talks about everyday life and of course our day will not be complete without our shot of destructive criticism towards others. The rest I guess I'm still spending what's left for the month of May but there's no guarantee (which really sucks) that we'll be under 1 team and most of all no guarantee that Supie will handle us once we hit production (total bummer!).



So here I am... Just hoping...

I'm hoping... Hoping of nothing in particular, just hoping of something good to keep me going.

Looking forward to our Team Building, wherever we end up spending it, as long as were complete, I know it will be a blast.




Guys whatever happens, please don't forget about me. :)

Summer Spoiler

Summer na!
Matatapos na nga e, pero hindi pa rin ako nakakapag out-of-town kagaya ng plano ko, ayos na ang lahat e, nakapag file nako ng VL at naapprove naman, kaso etong Penguin nakisabay, sira na ang plano, uuwi pa naman yung kaibigan ko from Dubai at plano namin pumunta sa Caramoan sa Naga. Nakakalungkot, nakakainis, sabi ni TL di daw pwede mag absent sa training, ginawan din ng paraan ni TL na ma move yung VL ko a week ahead my orig VL, pero what's the use? Naka VL nga ako pero wala pa dito yung kaibigan ko, siguro di nako makakaranas ng init ng araw sa tabing dagat ngayong summer. Nakakalungkot at nakakapagod. Naisip ko bumili na lang ng masayang camera, tapos sa birthday ni Bubba (sana maaraw) kami mag oout-of town. Sana matuloy, ayaw ko umasa ng 100% pero naisip ko na mas masaya ang out-of town kung may DSLR kang kasama.

You're mine Nikon d40 :D

Ano na?

Ano na?

Huh? Hmmm... Pano ba? Eto buhay pa din, what I mean is dito pa rin ako nagttrabaho, doing the same things I'm doing before when I thought I was dying...

Bakit?

Di ko rin alam. Siguro kasi naging masaya na,di na kagaya ng dati, di nako lumulutang. And for some weird reason when I was about to quit and compose a resignation letter, napaisip ako, ano na mangyayari? Kaya ko pa ba lumabas araw-araw ng maliwanag sa labas? Kaya ko pa ba magtrabaho sa ospital? Kaya ko bang magtyaga sa mas mababang sahod? Kaya ko na bang umalis sa pilipinas?


(Ang dami namang tanong)

Hindi na. Hindi pa. Hindi ko na kaya yung normal na buhay, ayaw ko na maarawan, ayaw ko na magbyahe ng mainit at siksikan, ayaw ko na makipag-plastikan sa mga taong kailangan kong alagaan, ayaw ko makitang kalahati or mas mababa ang makukuha twing katapusan at hindi ko pa kaya lumayo ng sobra.


Dito na lang muna ako... Masaya,malamig at malapit sa mga taong mahal ko.

i cried

you read it right. i cried. it was no usual day for me to begin with.

i have no plans of going back to my office anyways.

but i had to.

i must.

so many unfinished business only a responsible me can handle.

(hoping i really am responsible)

bubba doesn't know.

i cried...

many tears...

unsaid pain. from doing things only masochist can bare.

i am tired of my job in a way no word can explain.

i want to run. far away from everything.

if only things are as easy as saying it.

im doomed.

i can't function well.

still meeting my metrics at work but it was like programmed, all of it.

no emotions, no nothing.

i never knew it could be as tiring as it is now.

i use to blab to my friends that i am receiving a salary better than those who work their ass off in the morning shift and i never have to bring my job at home, but i was wrong.

it's like the more stay at that station the more im losing my soul.

is it really worth it?

the increase in my salary almost every month for a job well done?

i can't quit.

i dying.

i can sense my death.

max one month from now.

real bitch

i have issues, i hate a lot of things so it makes extra hard for me to be happy.


i hate fat people, i hate loud people, i hate sweaty people, i hate those who doesn't wanna be my friend.

sigh...




i always end up pissing those people i really hate, and believe me; im really good at that. it's like there is some kind of code imprinted on my DNA that when i wanna hurt people, i know where to poke sharpstick...
this may raise some eyebrows, i don't care, im well adjusted to my not so perfect little world.

one of my team8 said " si tin minsan lang bumanat pero sapul ka talaga pag nagsalita"



true....

and still i don't give a shit to anybody else...
i know it may cause me a lot of discriminations as much as i criticize those i don't like, but this is me...







i can be a real BITCH most of the time....

buntong hininga....

nakakapagod na talaga...

siiiiiiigh....

buntong hininga na naman...
bakit ba ganito kami palagi?
sa umpisa ang parang ok na lahat, tapos bandang huli palagi pa ring kinakapos...

madalas parang sobra sobra yung nakukuha namin, pero bakit ganito pa rin???
I'm not making any sense...

i know...

kailangan ko lang mailabas to...

ang hirap kasi e...


may kasama man ako...


parang wala pa rin sya... :(